The Retcon, Continuity's biggest enemy

Do you remember the Internet in the late 90's? Beeping Modems,slow connections, family members forcing you to get offline so they could use the phone,AOL-CDs... And how is it today? About one third of the worlds population uses it, porn everywhere, we're connected all time,new social networks popping up all the time,porn, MMOs are feasting on people's souls, there are thousands of blogs where people nobody knows talk about stuff nobody cares fo...wait,never mind...Did I mention there's a lot of porn? But I'm not here to discuss the high amount of porn on the Internet... In fact, I just wanted to use the Internet-part as a small Introduction to reach the social networks. There are a lot of them and -luke may others- I use some of them to inform my -probably not caring - followers about the absurd things that may occure,when a social Network tries lead your attention toward something particular. Facebook,for example recently checked the stuff I like and follow,discovered some Marvel- and Spiderman-Stuff and decided to suggest me to like Joe Quesada. NO. JUST NO. I wont like Joe Quesada. I'm not saying everything he did is bad or stupid. BUT he also made One More Day. And to make things worse,he also made One Moment In Time.

And that finally leads to today's topic: Retcons.

You see, ongoing series tend to develop a continuity - some more then others, but still.

Continuity is an important part of ongoin story-telling. It puts events in order and establishes them as part of the overall background-story. When you have long-running stories like Batman, Spider-Man, Grenn Lantern, Flash, Doctor Eho or many many more, which are around for for decades, it can get confusing for new people joining the story, which is why sometimes reboots are happening. 

Reboots can be okay, since they are meant to make things more comprehensible for newcomers by ignoring establising a new Origin or a sometimes a new status quo.

Some people like it,some people don't.  I think, it depends on the matter at hand: rebooting the Spider? Man movies seemed good; DC's New52...not so much.

A problem with reboots is, that they sometimes really just want to establish a new Status Quo, but they apparently didn't really think through what to change and what to keep. Look at the New 52, for instance: some characters were completely reinvented, others -like the Bat-Family- just had a few changes. Nothing wrong with that so far. But why on earth give Nightwing a new costume without telling why?(plus I think the blue was more his style. .. black and red looks so dark and gritty, that's not really Grayson's thing.)

Aaaanyway, time to get back to the real problem at hand: Retcons.

What is a retcon?

Sometimes, writers decide that they can't work with the conclusion of old events anymore and decide those events need to be changed. Often this is achieved by time travel, magic or some other super-natural way. Sometimes, things are retold out of another perspective, which reveals things that were unknown up to this point, which causes things to change.

The latter can be an acceptable way to change established facts (I said CAN), the first... not so much.

My favorite (read: most despised) example for a bad retcon would the aaforementioned One More Day.

In One More Day, Marvel Chief-Editor Joe Quesada decided to retcon Peter Parker's marriage to Mary-Jane Watson out of existence. 

Now, the normal approach would be a divorce,  or -as a more extreme measure- kill one of the characters involved in the marriage. 

Quesada however decided to flush the promise, he gave Spidey-fans that 'there would be no magical retcon to fix the marriage' doen the toilet when brought Mephisto into this. Yup, THAT Mephisto.

At the time, Marvel was just dealing it's civil war and Peter decided to give away his secret identity and get registered.  Since we all know that superheroes not only have fans, but also one or two enemies, nobody should be surprised to learn, that this was a bad idea.

When Spidey held a speech about this whole registration-act business,  an assassin hired by the Kingpin tried to deliver a 50.kal-present right into Pete's skull. Naturally, his spider-sense allowed him to dodge the bullet, but since dodging things doesn't just make them go away, Aunt May took the bullet. Hey, no big deal. We're in a comic-universe and it's a simple bullet wound,right? WRONG! We have lots and lots of doctors, geniuses like Tony Stark or Reed Richards, former surgeon and sorcerer surpreme Dr. Strange, who's magical power is pretty close to bending reality at his will... and nobody can do anything. And no, it wasn't an instant death for aunt May. She was brought in a hospital,where she even told Pete to let her go, since she had a good life. Naturally, Peter Parker ignored that whish and decided to go and find a cure, so he doesn't have to face the consequences of his actions. Good thing that Spider-Man was never about responsibility. ..oh, wait.

Anyway, Mephisto pops up and offers to save her life, of course for a price. Since souls get boring, he wanted something different: Pete's marriage. 

He wanted to retro-actively undo the wedding while leaving both Parker and Watson with the feeling that there is something missing in their lives.

Again, since spider-man was never connected to responsibility,  Peter Parker agrees.

So much for 'no magical retcon.'

Eventually,  the writers realised how stupid that was and it was retconned in One Moment In Time in a way that was even more stupid. (Please, don't ask)

Long story short: I hate retcons, no matter if they were done good or bad. When something was established, deal with it. If you can't,  find a way to change things WITHOUT pissing on the past. Yes, I'm also looking at you, Day Of The Doctor. I mostly liked you, but bringing back the Timelords was bull-crap. Yes, it was necessary, due to the regeneration-limit, but I'm pretty sure there would have been other ways around.

No matter who you are, no matter what you do: if it haplened, don't change it. Continuity is there for a reason.

Kirby out (oh by the by, I changed my alias -it's shorter... and easier to make people call me 'Kirby' than 'RestlessEntity' :3)

Stuff I need to say

Awesome Weekends are awesome.

I'm pretty sure, nobody's surprised by that statement, but I felt like pointing it out.
A little background:

Some time ago, me and my best friend slightly drifted away from each other, caused by some stupid stuff, that didn't even concern any of us directly.
Sad, but it happens.
So when I visited her over the weekend, we talked everything through (plus everything else that felt wrong or might could have caused this) and not even worked it out, but also realized again, that every fear of loosing the other, getting less important or replaced is complete and utter bullshit.

It may sound weird, but I'm feeling whole again. Whatever was missing, it's back where it belongs.
We've been taking care of each other for years, loosing that would be devastating.
Then I received a call last night. My wonderful soon-to-be room-mate and my amazing ex-girlfriend were having some fun, but realized they were missing me and felt the urge to tell me about it.
This made me pretty happy, but it also made me think:

Since my best friend moved to another town, I was restless and uneasy. I kept getting into trouble because I had nobody to calm me down. Then I was introduced to my now soon-to-be room-mate, who took it upon her to look out for me and keep me steady. I've been told multiple times now, that I made some remarkable, positive developments over the course of the last year, which is basically thanks to her.

My ex was the first person who actually was able to give me the feeling of being loved. She also forgave me for not being able to treat her the way she'd deserved it and is still working on making me stop tormenting myself out of guilt and shame. She not only forgave me my mistakes, but is still convinced that I'm a far better person then I'd ever imagine.

I thought about those three wonderful women and how much they're having a positive impact on my life.
I thought about their significant others and how cool they are with the fact how much space I take in the lives of the women they love (and with the fact that I threatend to skin them with a rusty blade,if they ever hurt those women).
Special Kudos to my Ex's man for that, from what I've been told, most guys would turn into stupid, jealous idiots, if their woman would still hang out with her ex on a regular base.

I thought about my internet-friends,who take their time to cheer up a guy on the other end of the world, even though they never met him (or only once). A bunch of amazing people who were either originally crusading... wait... that's not how it's called anymore,is it?
Anyway, that's when we met and I've grown very fond of her and she's always able to cheer me up, even if I sometimes think, she's trying to sneak-preach to me. And I love even that.
For the others... Well, I guess it started with me being a random guy who kept randomly commenting on thoughts they shared on Twitter. But again, These guys and gals turned into what I'd actually consider pretty good friends, even though I normally discuss less serious business with the guys. That's something that was always easier with women (and even then it's hard enough).

I'm thankful to my US-ladiesfor constantly cheering me up, no matter what's bothering them or how much they're fighting their own downs.

And..
I also thought about my best and oldest friend, who's been keeping m in line for 18 years now, even when he could't be physically present, because he moved to France.
See, I met this guy back in second grade and we got along pretty well (Back then, I wasn't that hard to be around). He always had to talent to act as calm anchor to troublesome old me. It was only when he left, that I realized how important this friendship was to me. Long story short: My grades dropped in an alarming rate and I alienated myself moreand more from other and basically became an asshole.Luckily, I soon met my female best friend, who managed to regulate the process very well, together with the previously mentioned ex.
But whenever I reflect my life, I have to realize that everything good that happened, everybody wonderful person I met or was introduced to, all that was made possible by him. I pick anything that makes me happy and look back on the chain of events that led me there -things I've done, that caught my interest in something or that made people introduce me to somebody who later took an important role in my life- and it is always somehow linked to him. I wonder if he is actually aware of that. I also wonder, if he even has the slightest idea what it meant to me, when he said he wants me to be his best man in a few years.
Eh, he probably does. After all, he knows me like nobody else does.

Anyway, right now, I have no idea how I sometimes feel lonely. I have such amazing friends to back me up.

And god help everyone who dares hurting them. It's true, I tend to be a little overprotective when it comes to my lady-friends, but I don't care. Hurting those who a close to me is a berserk-button, that should actually be listed on TV-Tropes, because the level of blind rage that gets triggered by doing so, even scares those who are listed above.

Another sad part about friendship is how fragile they can be sometimes. Looking back, I realize that there are a lot of people, who I just don't talk to anymore. Some left, sometimes we just got different interests over the years and some - not many, but a few- just didn't fit in my life anymore.
Speaking honestly, I have to say that sometimes I miss them, but most of the time I don't really think of them anymore.

So, what is the message I'm trying to carry out here?
I think it is, that good friends, who are always there for you, no matter what's going on or what you did, should be treasured. When I look at those I listed, they seem to be many. But when I compare them to those, I've lost over the years or to the sheer mass of people, I couldn't get along to begin with, I realize how lucky I actually am to have that many amazing friends.

If you got people like that, keep them close, cherish them and do whatever it takes to protect them.

RestlessEntity Out.

What's a Geek?

Yup, I'm still alive. I know, I became pretty lazy when it comes to writing, but in my defense: I had to fight off an evil writer's blockade. Now it's gone , but I stumbled upon a new problem: I don't like my writing style anymore.

And that was when I decided to revive the blog. After all, if I keep working, I should be able to regain my drive, right?

 

Anyway, I'll try to get on a regular schedule (bwahahaha),at least until I'm ready to get back some other projects which might steal some more time so that I'll have change my schedule here again and... well, at least I'll make sue not to make one-year-break or some crap like that again.

 

Anyway, today's topic are some thoughts on geekery.

See, there was this little discussion in a facebook-group if geek-culture should stay exclusive or if it should be more included in the mainstream-community.

Even though generally think classification to be stupid, I actually got curious: what exactly defines a geek?

If somebody would ask me if I'm a geek, I'd probably say yes, but if I”m completely honest, I never though about what actually makes me a geek. My love for comics or games? Some would say that makes me a nerd. Hell, I'm sure there are people who thinks, geeks and nerds are the same.

Let's face it, terms like 'Geek', 'Nerd' or 'Dork' got pretty mixed up during the last years. That means research-time (and maybe two future topics). 

'Dear Internet, would you please tell me what exactly defines a geek?'

Ok,opening Google, insert 'geek', hit search aaand... well, fuck me sideways, that's a lot of hits.

New search, this time adding 'definition' to the search-parameter. 

Ah, that's better. A definition right on the head of the page, then some dictionaries. So let's check out the first five hits: The Google-definition, Wikipedia,Urban Dictionary, The Merriam-Webster Dictionary and the Thesaurus.

 

Since I love my definitions plain and simple, let's start with Google's page-header. By the look of it, I'd say it's also taken from a dictionary, but I don't know which one.

 

 

 

Huh. I have to say, I'm not happy about this.

 

“unfaishonable or socially inept”. Does that mean, if you feel confident around other people, you'e not a geek? That sounds stupid. And don't make me even start about 'unfashionable'. What does even make someone fashionable (And here's another possible future topic)?

 

“eccentric devotion to a particular interest” seems like something I can accept, but the example computer-geek seems to narrowing it down to a fringe group, which make it dissatisfying. But then again, a proper research never contains only one source, so let's check out what Wikipedia has to say about it.

 

Of course I'm aware that Wikipedia isn't the most credible source since basically everyone can fool around with it. But let's give it a chance.

Oh that's nice, the page informs me,that the entry has some issues.

Anyway, according to Wikipedia, geek is “a slang term originally used to describe odd or non-mainstream-people”, ranging from “expert or enthusiast” to someone “heavily interested in a hobby” but is mostly used pejorative for a “peculiar or otherwise dislikable person, especially one who is perceived to be overly intelectual.”

So.. it's basically description for someone with special interests and a great knowledge about it, but it gets also disgraced as an insult for people who are jealous about others being more

being more intelligent?

Wait,the article goes on. Let's see.

The Term is also used in a proud way as a self-reference, so it gained the additional meaning of “someone who is interested in a subject for its own sake.”

What else do we have?

The definition-section basically tells us that there is no clear defintion and that there are many categories of geeks, poviding us with the most commonly know categories: science, math, history, computer, gaming.

The Impact of geeks on society isn't exactly what I'm looking for, and I'm not interested in fashion,so the “geek-chic'-section isn't that helpful either (except if you want to know more about geek-glasses and hipster-glasses and that proud self-proclaimed geeks dislike geek-chic fashion.) NEXT.

 

The Urban Dictionary says ...A LOT. Like always, there are a lot of definitions, so I just take a look at the first page and sum it up.

 

 

 

This one made me smile.

 

 

One of the entries notes that Geek should not be confused with Nerd. And points out that only a geek would waste on the internet, defining geek on urbandictionary.com.

Another one goes back to the historical meaning of circus freaks and states that it know describes someone getting paid to do work that's 'consodered odd or bizarre by mainstream society'.

There's also a note that -unlike 'nerd' which is always used devaluating – it often carries a positive connotation when it's used by someone who's part of the group and is only used in an insulting manner by outsiders (uhm... isn't that almost everytime how it works?)

Another Entry tries to compare normies,geeks,nerds and dorks. Interestingly, this is the first time that it's actually stated that geeks are what's considered 'socially normal' and just are experts on certain topics.

 

I really like the next entry: It clearifies, that geeks aren't computer people, but simply posses a very dep understanding about of certain topics, because they are basically obsessed with it. It also points out, that beeing a geek isn't restricted to certain topics, but open for everything (and lists music and cars to make this point). I like that.

Then we go back to the usual judgemental crap like lack of participation in sports, interest in computers, crude sense of humor and negative attitude toward common society. BLAH.

 

Time for a cross-reference with some more serious dicitionaries.

 

Merriam-Webster gives us the usual historical definition with the carnival performers, follows up with 'a person often of an intellectual bent who is disliked and finishes with an enthusiast or expert, but takes again the the clichee-route, using computers as example.

 

Thesaurus actually dissappoints me by simply saying 'odd person' and 'computer expert' and adding some judging synonyms.

 

Since the definitions are not really clear, I decided to ask someone for help, who gets often connected with the term geek and actually owns his fame to that connection. So I wrote an email to the Internet-celibrity Brentalfloss to ask him for his definition of a geek.

 

A few hours later, I got an email with the following definition:

“Geek= someone who's enthusiastic and analytical about a certain topic. You can be a sci-fi geek or a flamingo geek or a muscle car geek (as opposed to a nerd, who is called a nerd because he or she is into something nerdy).”

 

 

There are a two things I really like about this definition:

 

1. it's plain and simple.
2. It offers examples, that prove the general clichees to be narrow-minded.

Of course, If we think of the apparently brain-damaged sportsfanatics who kept picking on us -well, on some of us- back in school, calling us geeks in the process, I doubt they would have been happy, if we'd told them, that they are too geeks in their own way.

So maybe not everyone who qualifies for being a geek wants to bee a geek.

But I suppose that's the same for every subculture: In order to be part of it, you have to match certain criteria and one of them is feeling like you're part of it.

In Order to be a geek, you need to be passionate about whatever you like, but also need to admit, that you're a geek.

And why not? Being a geek is a fantastical thing: It's your permission to be utterly obssessed with something, know everything regarding it, freak out at the most trivial news about it -and enjoy all this. And do you know, what's even better? You don't even need the permission – you're a geek,that's what you do.

 

So, back to the original question: Should geekdom be included in mainstream-society or should it be an exclusive thing: I don't really think that we can influence that directly. As long, as society keeps it judgemental ways, we'll always be exclusive. As long as an adult getting excited about a kids-show gets looked down on, we're something special. As long as people even care about a difference between a comic-book and a graphic novel, as long as people think, there is something wrong about obsessing about a topic, 'outing' yourself as a geek will make you different.

And You know what? That's perfectly fine. I don't care what others think about it, I love being a geek.

Sure, I'm not that good at science and anything technically more advanced then a string telephone might confuse me just by doing what it does, but there are topics I know a lot about, actually enough to annoy everyone around me without repeating myself. And I'm proud of it. I like it. And I love meeting people who are as obsessed about it as I am.

What some people consider geekdom getting assimilated by mainstream-culture is the so called 'geek-chic' I tried ignoring earlier. People try to pose as geeks by wearing certain clothes or accesoires. Does wearing a Metal Gear-Shirt or using a TARDIS-bag to carry my things make me a geek? Does Having A Sonic-Screwdriver, A Pipboy-Bobblehead or an Assassins Creed-Statue make me a geek? No, it just shows that I'm a fan.

 

 

Bottom-line: Geekdom should stay exclusive, because that's not actually a proof of torlerance within society. But geek-purists can relax, because it's all about the attitude.

 

 

RestlessEntity out.

 

 

Thanks to BrentalFloss for providing me with a proper, acceptable definition.

Follow him on Youtube ( www.youtube.com/user/brentalfloss ) and on Twitter ( @brentalfloss ).

 

People, And Why They Suck - Leute, Und Warum Sie Ätzend Sind

Meh.
Just meh.
I don't know why, but I feel pretty annoyed these days.
Well, that doesn't mean,I don't know what's annoying me, hell no.
I just can't decide what's the worst of it.
People, for starters. People are pretty annoying and they are everywhere. Why are are there so many people, no matter where I go? Is there a conspiracy? Who need so much people? And why are they all talking? Can't they just shut up? And maybe stop being so many? All those people  everywhere... It's dusgusting.
Oh,and you know what's worse?
The People you know. Normally,there is a reason you know them and that makes it worse, because some of them, you see on a regular base. And regarding the fact,that most people are idiots, this could be a pain in the ass. Who wants to hear the stupidity of some really dumb people over and over again?
And even that can be cranked up to eleven: Enter People you actually like.
I've been busy keeping those few in numbers.
But still some of them manage to annoy the hell out of me.
As soon as I start to act -what they think to be- out of character,they keep annoying me.
Seriously, just because I try to hold back most of the time,that doesn't mean I'm not going to tell people they're stupid, right in their faces.
It also doesn't mean, I won't let go off a slightly part of my inner rage, when I feel like doing it.
And it defenetly doesn't mean, I'm completely heartbroken or anything stupid like that, just because a relationship just ended.
Sure, I won't do a happy dance about it, but stop blaming my - in your opinion irrational- behavior on this little event, for fuck's sake.
Maybe you just don't know me as much as you thought?
After all,I'm still just a sociopath who keeps lying about himself.
The best thing about these last few days?
The even lesser amount of people, about who's opinion I care (You didn't really think, just because I like someone,I automatically care about what he's thinking about me,did you?)proved me again, that at least they are reliable and didn't annoy me about this stuff. They accepted it,when i said "I'm fine", because they know I'll talk about stuff,when and if I feel like doing it, instead pissing me off by not accepting "I don't want to talk about it"...
Seriously, People have a strong tendency to suck.


Basically, it's like Mycroft Holmes said in "Scandal in Belgravia": "All lives end. All hearts are broken. Caring is not an advantage."

Bah.
Einfach bah.
Ich weiß nicht wieso, aber ich bin in letzter Zeit ziemlich genervt.
Naja, das heißt nicht,dass ich nicht weiß, was mich nervt, Himmel bewahre.
Ich kann mich einfach nur nicht entscheiden,was am schlimmsten ist.
Leute zum Beispiel. Leute sind ziemlich nervig und sie sind überall. Warum sind überall so viele Leute, egal wohin ich gehe? Ist das eine Verschwörung? Wer braucht so viele Leute? Und warum müssen sie alle reden? Warum können sie nicht einfach die Klappe halten? Und vielleicht damit aufhören, so viele zu sein? All diese Leute überall... das ist ja widerlich.
Und wisst ihr,was noch schlimmer ist?
Die Leute die man kennt. Normalerweise gibt es einen Grund, warum man sie kennt und das macht es noch schlimmer, denn einige von ihnen sieht man regelmäßig. Und wenn man bedenkt,dass die meisten Leute Idioten sind, kann das echt ätzend sein. Wer will die Dummheit einiger wirklich dämlicher Leute immer und immer wieder hören?
Und selbst das lässt sich noch steigern: Auftritt der Leute,die man mag.
Ich bin stehts bemüht, ihre Anzahl möglichst gering zu halten.
Und trotzdem schaffen es einige von ihnen, mich zu Tode zu nerven.
Kaum fange ich an,mich - ihrer Meinung nach - ungewöhnlich zu verhalten, hören sie nicht auf,mich zu nerven.
Ernsthaft,nur weil ich mich meistens zurückhalte - primär,da ich sonst nur noch mehr genervt würde- , heisst das nicht,dass ich ich Leuten nicht direkt ins Gesicht sage,dass sie dumm sind.
Es heisst auch nicht, dass ich nicht in geringen Maßen Dampf ablasse, wenn mir danach ist.
Und es heisst verdammt nochmal auch nicht, dass ich komplett von einem gebrochenen Herzen verzehrt werde, nur weil gerade eine Beziehung endete.
Klar, ich werde darüber nicht gerade einen Freudentanz veranstalten, aber hört auf mein -eurer Meinung nach irrationales - Verhalten auf diesen kleinen Vorfall abzuwälzen, verdammt nochmal.
Vielleicht kennt ihr mich einfach doch nur nicht so gut,wie ihr dachtet?
Schliesslich bin ich trotz allem nur ein Soziopath ,der über sich selbst unehrlich ist.
Das beste an den vergangenen Tagen?
Der noch weitaus geringere Anteil an Leuten, deren Meinung mich tatsächlich interessiert 8Ihr dachtet doch nicht ernsthaft, nur weil ich Jemanden leiden kann, interessiert es mich automatisch,was er von mir denkt,oder?) hat mal wieder bewiesen,dass ich mich auf sie verlassen kann, und sie mich nicht wegen irgendwelchem Quatsch nerven.  Sie akzeptieren es,wenn ich sage "mir geht es gut", denn sie wissen dass ich , sollte ich Bedarf haben, über irgendwas zu reden, es auch tun werde, anstatt mich mich zu nerven und es nicht zu akzeptieren,wenn ich sage "Ich habe keine lust drüber zu reden".
Irgendwie haben Leute die Tendenz, einfach zum kotzen zu sein.


Im Prinzip ist es,wie Mycroft Holmes  es in "Ein Skandal in Belgravia" sagte: "Alles Leben endet.Alle Herzen werden gebrochen. Mitgefühl bringt keinen Vorteil."

Distractions and Stuff - Ablenkungen und Krams

It's been a long time. Why has it been such a long time since my last post? Well,there are actually two reasons:

1.I was busy
2. I'ma lazy fuck.


Yes, I know. Everybody,who ever knew me, might be totally surprised by this,but I'm really able to be busy.
Seriously, I tried to get some motivation to learn for my practical exam (which I passed,by the way), I'm writing on three different projects -four, if you count that thing for school and even five, if you count this blog-, and there is a lot of roleplaying going on these days.
Well, of course I'm still abandoning my writing projects,when I'm stuck, but I intend to finish them one day. ALL OF THEM.
seriously, the statistic is a real downer...
The Fanfiction? Stuck on chapter 2.
The Novel? Stuck on chapter 4.
The Screenplay? Way to slow progress in Scene 2.
The Poem/Children's book? Need to be finished in five days.
The Blog? Oh hey,there's a squirrel...


But the roleplaying keeps me up. I still make some mistakes as a DM, but I don't think I suck as hard as I did when I started.
And now that I've got a second group for Shadowrun, I'll be playing on more regular base.
Yes,I know. In fact, we all know... More roleplaying means, I'll  be distracted even more.


Oh,now that I mention distractions, I finally started watching Doctor Who.
I know, it's a shame I'm not already watching the Show for years,but...
I've been distracted, I'm sure you got it by now.
But what shall I say? That's the way my mind works and I'm pretty sure, everything else is boring. Just like breathing.

Lange ist's her. Warum ist's so lang her,seit ich zuletzt einen Post verfasste? Tja, hierfür gibt es 2 Gründe:
1. Ich war beschäftigt.
2. Ich bin eine faule Sau.


Ja, ich weiss. Jeder,der mich jemals kannte wird komplett überrascht von dieser Neuigkeit sein,aber ich bin tatsächlich in der Lage, beschäftigt zu sein.
Ernsthaft, ich habe versucht,ein wenig Motivation zu finden,um für die praktische Prüfung zu lernen (die ich übrigens bestanden habe), Ich schreibe an drei verschiedenen Projekten -vier,wenn man das Ding für die Schule mitzählt und fünf,wenn man auch noch diesen Blog einrechnet- und dann ist da momentan noch einiges an Rollenspiel im Gange.
Natürlich breche ich meine Schreibprojekte nach wie vor ab,wenn ich festhänge,aber ich plane, sie eines Tage zu vollenden. ALLE.
Ernsthaft,die Statistik ist irgendwie deprimierend:
Die Fanfiction? Hängt in Kapitel 2.
Der Roman? Hängt in Kapitel 4.
Das Stück? Kommt viel zu langsam in Szene 2 voran.
Das Gedicht/Kinderbuch? Muss in 5 Tagen fertig sein.
Der Blog? Oh,hey ein Eichhörnchen...


Aber die Rollenspiele muntern auf. Ich mache zwar als Spielleiter immer noch einige Fehler, aber ich bin nicht mehr ganz so mies wie am Anfang.
Und jetzt, wo ich noch eine zweite Gruppe für Shadowrun habe, werde ich auch regelmäßiger spielen.
Ja,ich weiß. Wir alle wissen es.... Mehr Rollenspiele bedeutet, dass ich noch mehr abgelenkt sein werde.


Oh,wo ich gerade von Ablenkungen rede, ich habe endlich angefangen, Doctor Who zu schauen.
Ich weiss, es ist eine Schande, dass ich die Serie nicht schon seit Jahren schaue, aber...
Ich war abgelenkt,ich denke mal, das hat jetzt jeder verstanden.
Aber was soll ich sagen? So arbeitet mein Verstand nunmal und ich bin mir ziemlich sicher, dass alles andere auch langweilig ist. Ungefähr so wie atmen.

Buses and Behavior - Busse und Benehmen

Why seems every public transit to be at least in parts an asylum? Seriously, at first glance you may find many different types of insanity. School kids with monkey-like behavior, People who keep staring in a way, you'd think theyr minds are as empty as a bottle of water in the desert, people who are talking to themselves all the time (no headset, I checked) from time t time a woman who's laughinh like a subtile version of the Joker (keep in mind,that it's the subtile part, that's really freaking me out) and finally those weirdos who still have the balls to take a nap between all those strange behaving people (guilty as charged).But what's bothering me the most,is the fact, that social manners seems to be disabled the second people are getting on the bus and „Every man for himself“ kicks in again (respectively the hypocrisy gets disabled and the typical egomania gets fully in charge...I'm a dreamer,not an idiot. Of course I don't think,people are good [please don't kill me for genralization]). Seriously, why do the kiddos need an extra-seat for their bags while old granny with an ill foot need to fight for their balance? And why am I the bad guy, if throw said bag out of the bus, the next time the door opens or alternatively drag the kid from the seat? Sure it might be a bit harsh, but when the bus keeps on moving,the old lady is thankful... at least one person in this roadster of madness.

Warum sind öffentliche Verkehrsmittel eigentlich gleichzusetzen mit Irrenhäusern?Es scheint,als würde man dort diverse Variationen des Irrsinns finden,zumindest auf den ersten Blick:Schulkinder,die sich wie Affen benehmen,Leute,die leer vor sich hin starren, Leute die energische Selbstgespräche führen (Ich hab drauf geachtet,da war kein Headset) ab und zu mal eine Frau,deren lachen wie eine subtile Joker-Variante klingt wobei gerade das subtile dran beängstigend ist - und schließlich diejenigen,die tatsächlich den Schneid haben,in dieser Konstellation auch noch gelegentlich zu schlafen (ja,ich weiß,dass letzteres ich selbst bin).Doch vor allem ist es entnervend,dass scheinbar sämtliche sozialen Strukturen und Verhaltensweisen beim einsteigen abgegeben werden und sich plötzlich wieder jeder selbst der nächste ist (bzw. die Heuchelei abgegeben wird und die Egomanie noch deutlicher zutage tritt.... ich bin ein Träumer,kein Idiot,natürlich weiß ich,dass jeder zuerst an sich denkt [für diese Verallgemeinerung bitte nicht lynchen]) Ernsthaft,warum brauchen die Kiddies heutzutage einen Extraplatz für ihre Tasche,während die Oma mit ihrem kaputten Bein stehen muss? Und warum ist man plötzlich selbst der böse,wenn man nach mehreren erfolglosen bitten besagte Tasche schließlich kurzerhand an der nächsten halte stelle aus dem Bus wirft oder wahlweise besagtes Kind vom Sitz reißt? Zugegeben, das mag zuerst etwas drastisch sein,aber spätestens beim Ruck des nächsten Anfahrens ist die alte Dame dankbar.... wenigstens eine in diesem Mobil des Wahnsinns.

Now He Even Started Blogging - Jetzt Bloggt Er Auch Noch

That's it: Besides my regular spam in social networks, I finally started blogging. Some people may have their doubts about this, but instead of complaining they may just stop reading,if they don't like it.

So, a blog...Why? Easy counter-question: Why not?
Honestly, isn't the meaning of thougts to be shared?
I think so, so what's the big deal?
Before my head decides to explode, give my thoughts a nice place to live and follow the examples of TheSpoonyOne ( http://spoonyexperiment.com/ ),Yahtzee( http://www.escapistmagazine.com/videos/view/zero-punctuation?page=1 ) or Pentharis/Dark Steam (http://darksteamscogsoftheearth.blogspot.com)and many others and start rambling and ranting and babbling about a lot of stuff.

What will I be talking about?
Well, as the title "RestlessEntity - Depths And Shallows Of A Random Mind" implies, I'll talk about everything that crosses my mind which includes movies, games,books,music, stuff out of the daily life...well, you'll see(read: WE will see, I never planned ahead what I'll write about before I started working on it,and I won't start doing it now).
A Short note about the blog itself:I took the alias "RestlessEntity" because it's nearly impossible for me to just sit still (In the 10 minutes since I started typing, I wnadered the flat twice) and if manage not to move, my mind is on the run (Oh, hi insomnia).
"Depths And Shallows Of A Random Mind",well...
This part is self-expaining,I guess...
I'm pretty sure, nobody's Mind keeps a regular static level...
And if I'm wrong,then I don't care.

Some people may question the biligual part, I could just decide if I want to write in german OR in english...
well, I want to improve my english skills further (I'm still a grammar rapist), but I don't want my german to degenerate ( A tween,who can use proper language? HOLY COW!)
Besides:Of course I could choose one, but I could also run repeatedly in a wall,laughing manically but I don't do it. Why? Because I don't want to. Seems legit to me.


Jetzt ist's passiert: Neben meinem Gespamme in Social Networks fang' ich noch noch das bloggen an. Mancheiner mag an der Sinnigkeit dieser Aktion zweifeln,doch der möge statt zu nörgeln an dieser Stelle einfach das Lesen einstellen.

Ein Blog also... Warum? Ganz einfache Gegenfrage: Warum nicht?
Ernsthaft,sind Gedanken nicht dazu da,um geäußert zu werden?
Ich denke schon, also wo ist das Problem?
Und bevor mein Kopf platzt, biete ich den Gedanken hier lieber ein nettes Plätzchen.
Daher werden hier künftig dem Beispiel von TheSpoonyOne ( http://spoonyexperiment.com),Yahtzee( http://www.escapistmagazine.com/videos/view/zero-punctuation?page=1 ) oder Pentharis/Dark Steam (http://darksteamscogsoftheearth.blogspot.com) und vielen Anderen folgen,und Mich hier über Dieses und Jenes auslassen.

Worüber gedenke ich mich zu äußern?
Nun ja,wie der Name "RestlessEntity - Depths And Shallows Of A Random Mind" andeutet, über alles Mögliche,was mir so durch den Kopf geht, das wird variieren von Filmen und Games,über Bücher und Musik bis zu aktuellem Geschehen und... ach,ihr werdet es ja sehen.(sprich,wir werden es sehen, denn das ich plane,worüber ich schreibe wäre ja mal ganz was Neues.)
Vielleicht ein kurzes Wort zum Titel des Blogs an sich:
Auf das Alias "RestlessEntity" kam ich irgendwann, weil es mir einfach nicht möglich ist,mal still zu sitzen (in den 10 Minuten,die ich hier am tippen bin,bin ich auch schon wieder zweimal aufgestanden und durch die Wohnung gelatscht...) und wenn ich das doch mal schaffe,dann gibt der Geist keine Ruhe(Hallo Schlaflosigkeit).
"Depths And Shallows Of A Random Mind", nunja...
Ich denke,dieser Teil ist selbst erklärend,immer hat jeder Verstand Tiefen und Untiefen,denke ich mal...
und wenn nicht,so sei mir das an dieser Stelle einfach mal egal.

Manch Einer mag sich fragen,was der Part mit dem bilingual soll, schliesslich könnte ich mich ja auch einfach für deutsch oder englisch entscheiden...
Nunja zum einen,will ich mein Englisch verbessern(Die Grammatik ist noch unter aller Sau) und zum anderen auch in der Deutsch-Nutzung nicht völlig einrosten (ein Anfang-Zwanziger,der sich noch vernünftig artikulieren kann? Oh mein Gott!!!)
Abgesehen davon: Natürlich könnte ich das,aber ich könnte auch lachend gegen eine Wand rennen und tue es nicht.Warum nicht? Weil ich keine Lust dazu habe. In meinen Augen eine legitime Begründung.